Saturday, June 27, 2009

Love Letters

I've gotten through about 5 or 6 of my Mom's love letters. Most of it is the loving, random ramblings of a man longing for his firecracker in the States. Each of these letters hint a little bit about who my Mom was, and how she loved. Through the hopeful images of a life together, this man speaks of my Mother in a very different light then i've ever known...
She longed for this man, she felt lonely, she was timid in love, and she was scared. Of course, all of these are hidden amongst the purely positive characteristics of my Mom. But one thing I rarely, and almost never, saw in my Mom was a hint of any weakness.

My Mom usually didn't offer support or advice for me in my ventures through boyfriends and loved ones. She made me figure it out the same way that she did, which wasn't such a bad thing- it definitely made me stronger. I am finding comfort that I am more like my Mom then I thought. She felt the same doubts, she dreamt the same, and she loves the same way I do.

Life is funny; while I'm extremely saddened in the idea that I don't have her here to guide me, I am comforted knowing that she is still teaching me, somehow.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Can't Slow Down

Life is seemingly working to my advantage.
My post-school plans are forcing themselves on me, I'm feeling motivated to seek out my wants/needs, and I am scared to death.

Lets hope this is a mixture for success and happiness.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Update: Summer Fun in List Form

River as often as possible
Truckers tan
Promotions for the above average
Nerdy business jargon
Buying myself flowers
Being one with my cell phone/ unlimited texting
Hardcore music
Not hardcore music
One-piece bathing suits
Driving with all the windows down
Receiving revealing, drunk phone calls
Love letters
Reading at night, before bed
Tea: every morning, noon, and night
Camera documentation
Pending road trips
Disconnected TV
SPF 50+
New friends
Old friends
Loved ones.

So far, it's showing to be a pretty fantastic Summer.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Truths XVIII

Opportunities for vulnerability are some of my biggest fears.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Good Start

This morning I dragged myself and Bernadette to the river at 8am. Since my Summer class conflicts with any good river time, the morning seemed like a pretty good idea. And it was! It wasn't too hot, wasn't crowded, and it was terribly relaxing.

I really want to make a habit of this, like once or twice a week. Let me know if you want to join in!

Monday, June 8, 2009

Oh, how it clings to me

I have been unable to stop listening to Passion Pit for the last few weeks.
After getting their new album, Manners, it has been in rotation an embarrassing large number of times.

Tonight they played at the National, a place i'd never been to, but was kinda impressed with. Slanted floors= shorties bein' able to see! Once Passion Pit was preparing for their set, a few of us went to the center of it all to claim a good dancing spot.

Passion Pit was able to translate their energy fairly well through their live performance, I mean, I never stopped dancing, which is a rare sight. I'd like to thank my dance partners: Deepa, Bernie, Annam, and Jon! :)

Such a great experience, I am ecstatic.

P.S. Happy Birthday to Rob! :)

Full Moon

For some reason (cough*fullmoon*cough), Bernie and I were a bundle of ridiculousness yesterday. Target, getting hit on by two old dudes in a charger (they took pictures! Creeps..), Priscillas, Ice Pirates, and Photobooth.

We rule.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Truths XVII

I am impressive.