Sunday, January 31, 2010

Brushing off Ashes

"But East and West will pinch the heart
That can not keep them pushed apart;
And he whose soul is flat-the sky
Will cave in on him by and by."

-E. St. Vincent Millay

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Toughie I

Over the course of my life i've come across a few people who have made a deep impact on my person. These people I'm specifically referring to tend to be the strong, silent type. I admired those who showed their love and adoration through actions, reminders, and their presence. I enjoyed the distance they had from the situation, where they weren't throwing around words or loosing their meaning. They were there, they had feelings and ideas just like everyone else, they just didn't advertise it as loudly. I loved that they could be interpreted, and I always hoped that they had some quiet joke with themselves as they watch people try to unravel them.

In normal human fashion, I chose to try and emulate these qualities I so adored. This was possible firstly by the fact that my father is one of those people who had these traits. His inner strength and calm demeanor, he has protected me and guided me while still maintaining a hands off approach, letting me develop into yours truly. Through this, he has also remained something that I can only describe as a 'classic.' His image has not changed in my mind, and I can forever look back onto this and say "That, that right there is my Dad." I aim for this.

The trouble (and I say trouble, not problem, this could never be a problem) in this is that I am also very much my mother's daughter. She could befriend a wall, and get to know all of it's entire connecting surfaces. She had a personality that was hard to ignore, but you never wanted to. You knew who she was from the first time your saw her smile, and some days I'd kill for that trait. And here is where the conflict lies...

Truths XXVI

Hindsight truly is 20/20.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


It's quite spectacular what a few days away can do for the soul. New air, fresh experiences, much missed smiling faces, new directions. I am looking forward to making new habits, it's time to get back to being the best I can be.

To Do:
-Pick up where I left off on my book
-Amp up my domestic tendencies
-Put my all in at work so I can move/move up
-Ride out my new found motivation

Friday, January 8, 2010

Truths XXV

Just because my system is clean, doesn't mean I don't have vices.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Eventful Life

Someone is testing me, someone has GOT to be testing me. Maybe it's my shining optimism that has jinxed me. Anyways, it's safe to say the last few days have been crappy.

After getting home from work on the 2nd, I realized the General was acting weird. So off we went to the hospital. After a few hours, they discovered he had developed crystals in his urine. This required them to put him under, insert a catheter, and flush out and rebalance his system. After plunking down 2 months rent at the vet, I went home and General stayed in the care of the hospital.

I felt a little better when I remembered the fact that I had pet insurance, something I got once I realized I housed one adventurous kitty. But, true to form, once I got home and did some investigating I saw a big "LAPSED" mark next to my policy ID (Why it lapsed wasn't my fault, and they will be hearing my angry voice in the morning). After that bit of information, the freak-out session began.

This morning I had a little better grasp on things- the General was "comfortable," it was a new day, and the guilty feeling in my stomach had subsided. Helping me take my mind off things, Bernadette came over and we watched two terribly cute movies, 500 Days of Summer & Paper Heart. Later on, while I went to return the movies, I hopped in the car and the car wouldn't go. Ugh.

Everything is under control now, but I am in dire need of a break. This has all been a little too much.

But! tomorrow is another day! Woohoo!